Its 12:47pm and im currently at Valley hospital with my family. My dad had court today and ended up having 5 seizures in the courtroom. The paramedics brought him here and now we are all sitting in the waiting room because he needs to be seen but the hospital is busy so he is out here in the waiting room with us. I didnt get much sleep last night and im tired.
I did my workout last night including 20 minutes of yoga and 50 squats. I felt so good and proud of myself. Elisabeth and I agreed to reward ourselves for every 5lbs lost with a concert of Michael. We are saving Toronto for when we reach our goal of 160. We both want that weight shockingly. That is my goal as of now. When i reach that size i will decide if i want to lose more or not. I like having thighs and i want hips and a bigger butt. Plus my boobs. I just wanna perk them up a bit. Tone my arms and get a flatter stomach and ill be set. I know that i wont have my dream body, more than likely, but those are my goals. And i will be happy when i reach them. Im continually getting more confident in myself also. If i dont love myself now i wont love myself when i lose my weight.
Today at Panda Express as my back was turned and I was putting my food in my car, a homeless man came up to me asking for some money to have a chicken dinner tonight at the salvation army. As I was walking to my car, I looked all around as I usually do and saw nobody but as soon as I turned my back, he appeared. I gave him some money and my mom did as well. He then gave us a spiritual awakening...for me at least. He mentioned that someone in my family is an Eastern Star and Mason, my grandmother and grandfather on my mothers side are exactly that. He went on to give us more inspirational words and a prayer. He was so sweet and I just know that was God talking to us. An angel or something spiritual. Someone watching out for us, letting us know that though things may seem hard, we are NEVER alone. I have also noticed and been thankful for how blessed I have been this year. All last year I felt that 2014 would be the year for me to finally make a stamp on the world, no matter how big or small it may be, I'm going to do something important this year and I will make myself proud. I will make a difference and I still feel that way. This is my year. Something great is going to happen....I can feel it.
I did my workout last night including 20 minutes of yoga and 50 squats. I felt so good and proud of myself. Elisabeth and I agreed to reward ourselves for every 5lbs lost with a concert of Michael. We are saving Toronto for when we reach our goal of 160. We both want that weight shockingly. That is my goal as of now. When i reach that size i will decide if i want to lose more or not. I like having thighs and i want hips and a bigger butt. Plus my boobs. I just wanna perk them up a bit. Tone my arms and get a flatter stomach and ill be set. I know that i wont have my dream body, more than likely, but those are my goals. And i will be happy when i reach them. Im continually getting more confident in myself also. If i dont love myself now i wont love myself when i lose my weight.
Today at Panda Express as my back was turned and I was putting my food in my car, a homeless man came up to me asking for some money to have a chicken dinner tonight at the salvation army. As I was walking to my car, I looked all around as I usually do and saw nobody but as soon as I turned my back, he appeared. I gave him some money and my mom did as well. He then gave us a spiritual awakening...for me at least. He mentioned that someone in my family is an Eastern Star and Mason, my grandmother and grandfather on my mothers side are exactly that. He went on to give us more inspirational words and a prayer. He was so sweet and I just know that was God talking to us. An angel or something spiritual. Someone watching out for us, letting us know that though things may seem hard, we are NEVER alone. I have also noticed and been thankful for how blessed I have been this year. All last year I felt that 2014 would be the year for me to finally make a stamp on the world, no matter how big or small it may be, I'm going to do something important this year and I will make myself proud. I will make a difference and I still feel that way. This is my year. Something great is going to happen....I can feel it.
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