I just found out that my grandma has an enlarged heart. I dont know how to feel about this. Im worried. I know my family wont live forever and my grandparents being up in age with all the stress they deal with. But it still is scary. I cant allow myself to worry, to be afraid....i just...i want my grandparents with me a little longer. I wanna make them proud before they leave. Before they go home. Thats what scares me. Not knowing if theyre proud of me before they leave. Ive never dealt with this personally save for Michael. I remember my cousin Pats funeral....i only cried because my mom.was crying. I didnt know Pat personally. I wasnt attached to him. I dont know how im going to take it when my grandparents leave. I pray that i have a few more years with them. I am going to officially prepare myself. Knowing she has an enlarged heart kind of confirms it for me that she wont be here forever. And now i have to ready myself for when they leave. Be it soon.or not. Im just going to pray. My grandfather on the other hand doesnt need insulin anymore. So that is a blessing. Now its just his stress i have to worry about.
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